The Author’s Desk

Brandy grew up believing fear was love and chaos was life. From a fractured childhood to teenage pregnancy, from toxic relationships to cycles of lust, addiction, and shame, she learned to survive by burying herself in the very things that were destroying her. For years, she lived in the grave: trapped by trauma, anger, and choices she thought defined her forever. But God had other plans.

 Addicted to Pain is a brutally honest, beautifully redemptive memoir of a woman who lost herself in dysfunction and found her true identity in Christ. With unflinching vulnerability, Brandy takes you through the broken places, the secrets, the betrayals, the regrets, and then into the garden, where healing, faith, and restoration bloom. This is not a story about perfection. It’s a story about grace. About second chances. About a God who meets us at our worst and still calls us worthy.

 If you’ve ever felt too far gone, too broken, or too bound by your past, this book will show you the truth: your grave is not the end. It can become the very ground where new life begins.